I have been silenced my whole life. I’ve been systematically trained to tone it down, keep it palatable, don’t offend- just pretend. When I was a child my mother often suffered migrains and we would have to tip toe around the house. I was often hushed by the adults in my life- forbidden to […]
You have to make it not matter. Alchemize. Neutralize. You try. You fail. No matter! You ask. You’re rejected. No matter. You give. You’re taken for granted. No matter! They judge you. They’re wrong. No matter! You play. You lose. No matter! You play again. You lose again. No matter! You knock. The door slams. […]
Grieving and processing the loss of a care giver that was also a primary abuser in nothing short of confusing. I write this in hopes to help others to find freedom to process their own truth- no matter how messy it is.