A poem depicting the absurdity in comparing ourselves with others

Journey On…
Written by Elizabeth A. Van Cleve

Don’t ever say-
Because I’m here
You shouldn’t be there
or
Because you’re there
I shouldn’t be here
It makes no sense

Would you ever say-
Because I am twenty
You shouldn’t be two
Because I love red
You shouldn’t love blue
or
Because you’re a teacher
It’s not okay I’m a student
Because I’m carefree
It”s not okay that you are prudent
Because I’m in the east
It’s not okay you’re in the west
Because you do it better
It’s not okay I do my best
Because I see the sunset
It’s not okay you see it rise
or
Because I slipped and stumbled
It’s not okay that you were wise?

See how ridiculous
this thinking seems to be?
When I cannot be you
And you cannot be me!

Do you ever say-
Because you’re over there
I should not be here
or
Because I’m over here
You should not be there?
It makes no sense

One should never say-
Because my skin is black
Your skin should not be white
Because I think it’s wrong
You cannot be right
Because my body’s whole
It’s not okay you cannot walk
Because I know the language
It’s not okay you cannot talk
Because I am straight
It’s not okay that you are gay
Because you have to work
It’s not okay that I should play
or
Because you are happy
It’s not okay that I am sad
Because they got it good
It’s not okay I’ve got it bad
Because you are you
It’s not okay that I am me
Because I have a vision
It’s not okay that you do not see

Because I am here
It’s not okay that you are there
or
Because you are there
It’s not okay that I am here
It makes no sense

Here’s what we should say-

I am here, and
It’s okay that you are there
You are there, and
It’s okay that I am here
I see one way
Because I am here
You see another way
Because you are there
Your journeys yours
My journeys mine
I may be twenty
You may be ninety-nine
You may be a woman
I may be a man
Another may be both
By what they understand
You may live in India
I may live in France
I may be very timid
You may love to dance

One thing is for certain
It’s foolish that we fight
And say you must be wrong
Because I think I’m right
It is what it is, and
We are where we are
And from where I started
I’ve come thus far
So journey on my friend
I wish you all the best
As you travel east, and
I travel west

Cheerio!

Trying to Get it Right

A Poem I wrote today about the struggle in trying to get something right!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Trying to Get it Right
Written by: Elizabeth A. Van Cleve

I heard you the first time
and tried to get it right
But my memory and my will
Got into a fight
My will it won the battle
and overtook my might

Your earnest plea the next time
Made my memory strong
I made a resolution
Not to get it wrong
But my resolution vanquished
Beneath the pressing throng

The punishment convinced me
N’er let my focus stray
To do my duty faithfully
Let nothing dim my way
But boredom slowed my footsteps
Daydreams set me to play

Your smile was refreshing
As you explained to me
The hows and whats and whys
And then you set me free
Right or wrong or not at all
Was now a choice for me

I heard you the last time
But now I understood
I didn’t have to try this time
I knew I surely would
For my will was now the Master
Of the right way for my good!

Made of Starlight


Made of Starlight
Written by Elizabeth A. Van Cleve

Descending in to an abyss,
I awoke,
and it was dark;
But fireflies flitted about.
I laughed and danced
and chased them,
tried to catch them,
until I tripped and fell
and descended yet deeper,
where it was darker.
The fireflies flitted about
and I cried…
for their light had betrayed me.
I buried my face in sorrow
and when time stood still
I looked up,
and to my joy I beheld
infinite twinkling starlight;
and I leaped and I laughed.
I climbed the highest mountain I could find,
and I stood upon my toes and reached
my clutching fingers.
Then I fell down and wept.
For the starlight moved higher
with each ascending step.
I called out into the night;
“How can I grasp a star? How must I catch a firefly?”
The breezes shifted, and lost their gentle touch.
They whipped me and chided me.
I ran in a flurry;
I stumbled and fell…
deeper, yet deeper still into the abyss.
And so dark was this depth,
I perceived not my own self.
I saw not one firefly.
no stars shared their light.
I must be nothing- I must not exist.
Tears ceased to fall; I was nothing at all.
Then far in the distance,
a lone light
pierced the blackness.
Slowly I crawled
laboriously,
one terrified
step at a time.
The sole flicker
my last hope,
grew brighter with each step.
I wondered at it’s beauty.
No firefly nor star radiated
as brightly, as clearly.
Soon I stood upon my feet.
The shadows slunk away.
In the BRILLIANCE of its blaze,
the night turned into day!
It burnished out a world of wonder and delight.
As I drew closer to the source of this mighty flame,
I leaped and laughed and danced.
But when I reached the place,
from whence this light was glowing
I staggered in a daze
astonished at what I saw
A mirror stood before me- that was all!
In reverent silence I stood staring at myself,
for I now could clearly see
that the starlight I had longed for
had always been in me!

The Message is Simple… LOVE!

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Lately, it seems to be quite a struggle to hold onto hope for real world peace, to feel safe and secure in life, and to trust in the best intentions of humanity. News headlines lines literally wreak with purifying stories of hatred and malice, murder and deceit, heartache and suffering. I suppose the most baffling aspect of it all is why would things be worse, when there are churches and religions massively covering the earth claiming to teach unity and love? In fact, I don’t think there is hardly a religious person out there that would not agree that LOVE is the key that unlocks happiness, peace, joy, liberation, forgiveness…

Then why, why is the world in such a mess?
Why is religion not impacting the world as it could be?

The reason religion is failing to unify is because of a little conjunction that most religion adds to the simple message to love.

That conjunction is “and”.

What comes after that conjunction is as vast and as varied as personalities are.

Love and go to church
Love and give money
Love and dress the way we dictate
Love and submit to authority
Love and be baptized
Love and call yourself a_____________
Love and join our affiliation
Love and see things the way we see them
Love and agree with everything the pastor preaches
Love and don’t listen to rock music
Love and wear a covering on your head
Love and don’t ask questions
Love and be compliant
Love and serve our church
Love and stay away from______________

On and on and on it goes. Where it stops nobody knows.

Its not what follows the “and” that is the problem. It’s the “and” being there in the first place.
The “and” is what breaks the fellowship. The “and” is what divides. The “and” is what turns love into hypocrisy. The “and” is what removes the unconditional. Its the “and” that provides the excuse to commit atrocities. Its the “and” that inflates the ego. It’s that little conjuntion “and” that is added to the simple message of LOVE that dilutes it and robs it of its potency.

LOVE!

That is the key to world peace. That is the key to happiness. That is the key to Spirit.

God is love. Love is God.

The message of the sages is simple:

LOVE!

Written by Elizabeth A. Van Cleve
10/09/2016

Your Inner River that Satifies

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There is a river
That flows from deep within,
There is a fountain
That frees the soul from sin,
Come to this water,
There is a vast supply,
There is a river
That never shall run dry.

This song talks about the river that “flows from deep within.”

In my book, “The Voice of God Within” I share my journey out of the abyss of religious muck and mire and finding true soul freedom when I began to listen within. I still hear that voice, and I have more peace now than I ever did in stuck in the boxed up teachings of Christianity.

However, my time spent in religion was not in vain. It was a stepping stone to where I am today- a learning process. I do not regret it. I was doing my very best during those years with what I understood. Nor do I advocate that religion is unnecessary. Many people are helped greatly by their religious affiliation.

But the greatest freedom, joy, peace and love all come from the voice within– There is a river that flows deep within each and every one of us. Most religious systems teach that you have to go through a process to receive this special infilling that gives you access to this river. Yet, I have found that it is these very processes offered that keep you away from this precious inner guidance. Religious dogma and expectations cause a person to look more without than within.

The REAL awakening comes when you hear and listen to the voice within. This voice is in every one of us. It is the very spark of life. It is the realization that YOU are the temple of God. Not a building or a group of people- but YOU! The Christ experience is to understand that you too are God incarnate.

“Is it not written in your scriptures, Ye are gods?” ~Jesus Christ

This song talks about freedom from sin, which is what keeps us from drinking of this eternal river. Sin is separation from God, or to put it more plainly- separation from SELF. It is anything that keeps you from listening within. When we hear that voice within, it leads us to have abundant life.

“I came so that you might have a more abundant life” ~Jesus Christ

To be religious is to be dedicated to a systematic way of living, to its rules, and to its religious observances. It is to have an allegorical “old-testament” way of life- to fear and quake before a powerful God- outside yourself, that will one day destroy all that is known to us today; it is to be judgmental of yourself and others; it is to separate, to war against, and to destroy your personal self- old testament religion is divisive. It is an allegorical testament of the evolution of man.

But to be authentic- or what Christ said to the woman at the well, to be in spirit and in truth, is to listen within; it is to drink of the inner eternal waters; it is to be reconnected to yourself; it is to become alive to your true, authentic self, which is God incarnate; it is to be free from rules and regulations and simply subjected to yourself to your own inner guidance system; it is to connect to pure, infinite, unconditional love; it is peace and serenity with yourself, with this life here, with others, and with God; it is the peace that passes understanding; it is to know that you can never really be separate from God; it is understanding that nothing in and of itself is evil or bad, but only perceived as evil (Romans 14:14); it is to be okay with where other people are in their journey; It is the freedom from feeling responsible for other peoples journey; it is to love everyone everywhere because you realize that what you do to one, you ultimately do to yourself; it is understanding that we are all of one source and life is eternal, and this too shall pass; it is knowing that the only thing that is real is that which never changes- that voice of God within- that YOU that has been there all along…

Look for that river within- it is a VAST supply!

 

 

 

What is RIGHT with Me!?

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When someone else comes against us, discourages us, rejects us, misunderstands us, makes fun of us, breaks up with us, or is just plain mean to us, after grappling through the initial blow and shock of what just happened, more often than not, we start to ask ourselves, “What is wrong with me?”

Lets put the breaks on this question right here and now with the simple answer:

NOTHING!!!!

We are not even asking the right question,

“What is wrong with THEM?” 

After all, they are the one with the issue- not you.

They are the one responsible for how they feel and react or respond to ANYTHING in life- including you.

Its time to dump the question of what’s wrong with me and replace it with an empowering, positive question;

“What is RIGHT with me?”

In fact, if you tend to look for what is wrong with you, start making the question “What is RIGHT with me?” a regular habit.

Smile at yourself in the mirror. Ignore all those ugly negative voices that keep trying to pull you into self-condemnation.

Tell that beautiful, one of kind person in the mirror that you are his/her BEST friend and you are going to start telling him/her all the reasons why!

“What is RIGHT with me?”

Now that is a question worth meditating on and answering!!!

Have an awesome day!

 

Why Are They Rejecting Me?

Rejection

One of the most painful human experiences is that of rejection. This is because we are all interconnected and love and acceptance is a primal need.

Rejection is difficult to deal with for anyone and the difficulty increases when it comes to close friends and family, the ones we feel most connected to.

Their are both overt and covert ways of rejecting someone.
An example of an overt rejection is someone outright making fun you or telling you in some way that they do not like something about you.

Covert rejection is more subtle and deceitful.
We feel it inwardly, but outwardly the family and/or friends we feel rejected by act as if they are accepting us; yet, something about their energy or their little subtle remarks to us, tell us that they do not accept us. We may feel confused, frustrated and many times we mercilessly blame ourselves.

The law of attraction states that like attracts like.
When we are striving to raise our positive vibrations, continual, subtle feelings of rejection by those we love can derail us over and again until we feel like giving up.

Powerful exercises to help you overcome the negative emotions rejection evokes:

The following exercises will empower you and help you to move past those negative, hurtful feelings of rejection and onto creating your life of love, joy and full and unconditional self-acceptance.
(The exercises should either be done verbally out-loud or written down somewhere)

Part 1

  • Acknowledge how you feel. E.g. I feel rejected, unloved, hurt…
  • Locate the feeling-pain in your physical body. Talk about it as you feel it move through your body. Breath deeply, blowing out the negative emotions as you write or speak. E.g. It feels like somebody punched me in the gut. The pain is moving through up into my chest around my heart and lungs. (deep breath, slowly release) the energy is shifting. It isn’t as painful now. It is up in my shoulders sort of tingly. (breath deep move and shake the energy around and out of your shoulders) I am blowing it out and I am starting to feel better.

Do this exercise until you feel better. Do not add the reason why or the story behind it. Just feel the energy move through and out of your body. When you have come to a better feeling place, breath a few more deep cleansing breaths while stretching your arms and legs and body out.

Part 2

Why are they rejecting me?

It all has to do with energy and vibrations. Obviously we are attracting the energy of rejection into our vibration. So it stands to reason that somewhere we have adopted the belief that we are not acceptable, or we are unlovable. Try and think back as far as possible to the very first time you felt this feeling or rejection.

E.g. My first feeling of rejection came very young when I was born to a Newly-wed mother and father who had both been previously married and divorced and had other children from their first union. Due to the confusion and pain of being separated from their biological father and now disciplined in severe ways by their step father, my older siblings felt very threatened by my presence. Most of the time they wouldn’t let me play with them. I was even injured a few times by their rejection. Once they accidentally slammed my finger in the door and the tip of my finger was severed. Another time my sister had a neighbor boy punch me in the stomach. I passed out while walking home crying. There is no blame here on them, just the way the energy of rejection was already in place and going through our vortex. I would eventually reject my younger siblings at times as well. It was the energy cycle we were immersed in. 

Lets look at the energetic side to my story:

I was born into a very negative vortex. Because I was born into a family of people that were already deeply wounded by rejection, they were not able to receive my love and affection. In fact, my vulnerability made them outright angry because it reminded them of their own defenselessness. Consequently they rejected and wounded me too. I took into my vortex the energetic imprint of unlovable and unacceptable, and began to attract experiences into my vortex of reality that matched it. I can look over my life and see a painful trail of rejections.

Consider the people who originally rejected you.
What was their energetic imprint? How did this affect your vortex?

Take a little time to comfort your child-self that was originally wounded.
Help him or her to see that it was because the people around her were not able to take in the love and affection he or she offered and it really was not about her, but them. Comfort that child.

Lets add a little deeper perspective to it now as an adult.

When your energy is about healing, love, authenticity and honesty, there are many unhealed people that these positive energy forces will clash with.

Consider this:

If someone feels safe in conformity, your honesty and authenticity will feel threatening to them. If someone is too fearful to face their own shadows, your love and healing energy will feel threatening to them. When someone feels threatened, they generate defenses and hatred towards the one that feels threatening.

An animal senses fear as a threat. Your fear of rejection will also amplify the problem. Because fear is a very negative emotion, it only generates negative vibrations. But as you clear those fears through understanding energetic imprinting and cleansing the wounds, you will feel rejection less and less and begin to love and accept yourself fully. Joy will ensue!

Repeat the above exercises as often as needed.

Practice part 1 whenever you are sideswiped with those feelings of rejection. Move the energy through. Do not allow it to continue rolling around in your body and mind. Deal with it.

Practice part 2 until you fully understand the cause and effect of your own energetic imprint. Knowledge is power. Once you understand what we are really dealing with at an energetic level, you now have the tools to let that negative energy be reabsorbed into pure positive energy- send it into the energetic vortex of reality- it was never really about you.

Now you can move forward in creating a life of happiness and pure JOY!

Start Your Day with Awesome Sauce

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Good Morning!

Here is quick morning practice to do before you even get out of bed that can add that extra awesome sauce to your day!

  1. As soon as you wake up say “Good Morning” out-loud with a smile on your face.
  2. Next, say out-loud, three things you are thankful for; e.g. Thank you for a safe nights rest. Thank you for another day of life. Thank you for this bed/ room….
  3. Spend five minutes waking up your body. Stretch your feet back and forth. Roll your wrist. Take long, smooth, deep breaths. Bask in the moment.
  4. Sit up and ask yourself, how do I feel today and what do I need? Tune into your body. Its it tired? Sore? Refreshed? What about your mood? Do your night dreams come to mind? Bring them to the forefront. What emotions were felt? How do they relate to your current life? Acknowledge them. If they were negative emotions, determine what you need to bring them up the vibrational scale. Keep a journal and pen by your bed to take notes.
  5. Once you decide on your needs, think about how you can meet those needs in the upcoming day. If you are sore, maybe a hot Epsom salt bath and a couple aspirin would help. If you are weary from a stressful week, perhaps you needs rest and relaxation.
  6. Ask yourself, “How do I want this day to feel?” Now that you have tuned in to your needs and desires, you can answer this question. Feel is the key word here. Do you want to feel relaxed? If you are meeting up with people, how do you want the meet up to feel? If you are going to work, how do you want work to feel today? Put your feelers out there and really feel what you desire.
  7. Now commit it all to the universe. Place it all in a colorful bubble- choose a color that feels good and then mentally release it for the universe to work it out.

You are the co-creator of your life. You are either creating by default or you are creating intentionally.

Have an AWESOME day!!!

How to say NO nicely

 

Just say no

“NO” tends to have such a negative stigma to it, and yet it is possibly the most powerful word in our vocabulary when we learn to use it regularly in our lives. You see in this world of duality we have both YES and NO-  and together they are called CHOICE! As we move toward wholeness and well-being, it is imperative that we become very cognizant of our choices and choose deliberately and wisely those things which heal, uplift, bring peace, love, joy, happiness, and fun- and sometimes those things that are difficult in order to help ourselves or others out of loneliness, despair or even danger.

“NO” needs to be heavily cultivated in our lives in order to make room to say YES to our true desires, wants and needs. It’s important to decipher accurately what you are responsible for and what you are not responsible for. In order to bring NO into your comfort zone, you have to come to the realization that:

  • You are not here to be the savior of the world.
  • You are not the rescuer of other peoples lives.
  • You are not responsible for other peoples choices, other peoples feelings or emotions, other peoples opinions, and other peoples journey here.

We can call this list false responsibility. “Other people” includes family and close friends. Even our children, once they are of age to make their own decisions independently, we need to let them go and make their own choices and be responsible for their own journey, feelings, mistakes and progress. We gave them all we were able and now its time for them to journey on and learn as we have learned- through trial and error, and through all of life experiences- the good and the difficult.

The next time you are asked to be somewhere, to bring something, to do something, to go somewhere, to help out, care for, etc… weather asked verbally or by assumption, if you are not in the habit of saying no when you need to, then do not answer right away. Take time consider what your responsibilities truly are, whether or not you want to say yes and why. Think about the obligation that saying yes will entail and if you have the energy, time, strength or desire to make that obligation.

When you say NO, you need not offer an explanation. I bite my tongue, if needs be, to keep from explaining myself to others. I don’t need to do that.

*Just remember that once you give a reason why you are saying no, that opens the door for argument and for the other person to persuade you otherwise. When you are endeavoring to build healthy boundaries “NO” is one of your best friends!!!

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With Brave Wings She Flies!

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By Elizabeth Van Cleve
July 4, 2014, edited August 10, 2016

It’s been over two years since I left the church I had been a part of for close to 20 years. With all the courage I could muster, I walked out of the inner world of protocol, dogma and dictation and out into a world of uncertainty and misgiving. I waited for the sky to fall, for the serpent to bite, for the wrath of God to shake his finger at me and claim me a heretic doomed for hell’s fires. Every slip away from the rules and regulations I had so faithfully adhered to, was followed by accusations that I was the devil’s advocate and would soon be “seven times worse than before.”

It wasn’t a hasty nor a light decision. It began a few years prior, when in a desperate cry for relief from a monotonous, insipid life, I began to pray that God would take every ounce of religious spirit out of me and to help me to be a proper representative of him. Over the years the splits, fighting, hurt and drama I had witnessed at church and in the religious world at large, I knew God could not be the instigator of it all. I was so discouraged and let down. I could not envision the entire world being locked down in this systematic way of living that we were regularly admonished to uphold. Though I understood very deeply that the world at large has great needs, in my mind this way of life was not the answer.

I began reading books written by women who had been involved in religious cults and they resonated the same fears I had about leaving their religion, of God’s wrath, and of their system being the only way to heaven. It opened my eyes to the manipulation of fear, and I began to understand that what was holding me to the church I was immersed in was no longer a love for Christ and his work; Somewhere along the way, that had been lost in all the “do’s and dont’s” and in the complete take over of my life. I was no longer happy there and I was dying inside and the church did not have the answers to my inner turmoil. I knew that the only thing that was continuing to hold me there was fear. Yet, God was working so gently within my heart, drawing me closer to and showing me my wings.

A complete paradigm shift was going on inside of me. Little by little God began to rock my world so severely and I knew I needed to leave religion behind me. I read a book titled “Half The Sky” written by two journalist who traveled to several countries and witnessed the violation and oppression of women and young girls in developing countries. The stories in this book were absolutely horrific. I began to contemplate how so many women were in countries and/or positions where they had no voice about what was being done them. I thought about all the religious oppression world wide where torture and blood shed awaits any who would dare question the system. And here I was in AMERICA- the land of the FREE choosing OPPRESSION! I then realized that leaving church was not just about me. My freedom was about every man, woman and child out there who have no rights. My freedom was not to be taken lightly. My freedom was a responsibility. My freedom was their HOPE!

Yet I struggled because of years and years of fear conditioning. Then, one day I saw this vision of myself; I was in a large cage, curled up in a ball, crying. The door of the cage was wide open but I was too terrified to leave because I believed the serpent waited without to devour me. Then God spoke to me and told me to use my wings and fly away.  It took a great amount of courage to leave flying straight towards my deepest fear. It was the bravest step I ever took. But the day I flew away, a great load lifted off of me and I knew, I had just taken my first step towards TRUE FREEDOM!- that freedom that comes from within- that freedom of KNOWING I have wings and Spirit is the wind beneath them and that nothing could ever separate me from God. The day I walked away, was the beginning of my personal inner freedom and authenticity.

I have never regretted that decision!

“Freedom is never voluntarily given by the oppressor; it must be demanded by the oppressed”
-Martin Luther King, Jr.

To read more of my spiritual journey out of religion and what I have learned see my book: “The Voice of God Within: An Inward Journey of Discovery and Restoration”