Made of Starlight


Made of Starlight
Written by Elizabeth A. Van Cleve

Descending in to an abyss,
I awoke,
and it was dark;
But fireflies flitted about.
I laughed and danced
and chased them,
tried to catch them,
until I tripped and fell
and descended yet deeper,
where it was darker.
The fireflies flitted about
and I cried…
for their light had betrayed me.
I buried my face in sorrow
and when time stood still
I looked up,
and to my joy I beheld
infinite twinkling starlight;
and I leaped and I laughed.
I climbed the highest mountain I could find,
and I stood upon my toes and reached
my clutching fingers.
Then I fell down and wept.
For the starlight moved higher
with each ascending step.
I called out into the night;
“How can I grasp a star? How must I catch a firefly?”
The breezes shifted, and lost their gentle touch.
They whipped me and chided me.
I ran in a flurry;
I stumbled and fell…
deeper, yet deeper still into the abyss.
And so dark was this depth,
I perceived not my own self.
I saw not one firefly.
no stars shared their light.
I must be nothing- I must not exist.
Tears ceased to fall; I was nothing at all.
Then far in the distance,
a lone light
pierced the blackness.
Slowly I crawled
laboriously,
one terrified
step at a time.
The sole flicker
my last hope,
grew brighter with each step.
I wondered at it’s beauty.
No firefly nor star radiated
as brightly, as clearly.
Soon I stood upon my feet.
The shadows slunk away.
In the BRILLIANCE of its blaze,
the night turned into day!
It burnished out a world of wonder and delight.
As I drew closer to the source of this mighty flame,
I leaped and laughed and danced.
But when I reached the place,
from whence this light was glowing
I staggered in a daze
astonished at what I saw
A mirror stood before me- that was all!
In reverent silence I stood staring at myself,
for I now could clearly see
that the starlight I had longed for
had always been in me!

Your Inner River that Satifies

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There is a river
That flows from deep within,
There is a fountain
That frees the soul from sin,
Come to this water,
There is a vast supply,
There is a river
That never shall run dry.

This song talks about the river that “flows from deep within.”

In my book, “The Voice of God Within” I share my journey out of the abyss of religious muck and mire and finding true soul freedom when I began to listen within. I still hear that voice, and I have more peace now than I ever did in stuck in the boxed up teachings of Christianity.

However, my time spent in religion was not in vain. It was a stepping stone to where I am today- a learning process. I do not regret it. I was doing my very best during those years with what I understood. Nor do I advocate that religion is unnecessary. Many people are helped greatly by their religious affiliation.

But the greatest freedom, joy, peace and love all come from the voice within– There is a river that flows deep within each and every one of us. Most religious systems teach that you have to go through a process to receive this special infilling that gives you access to this river. Yet, I have found that it is these very processes offered that keep you away from this precious inner guidance. Religious dogma and expectations cause a person to look more without than within.

The REAL awakening comes when you hear and listen to the voice within. This voice is in every one of us. It is the very spark of life. It is the realization that YOU are the temple of God. Not a building or a group of people- but YOU! The Christ experience is to understand that you too are God incarnate.

“Is it not written in your scriptures, Ye are gods?” ~Jesus Christ

This song talks about freedom from sin, which is what keeps us from drinking of this eternal river. Sin is separation from God, or to put it more plainly- separation from SELF. It is anything that keeps you from listening within. When we hear that voice within, it leads us to have abundant life.

“I came so that you might have a more abundant life” ~Jesus Christ

To be religious is to be dedicated to a systematic way of living, to its rules, and to its religious observances. It is to have an allegorical “old-testament” way of life- to fear and quake before a powerful God- outside yourself, that will one day destroy all that is known to us today; it is to be judgmental of yourself and others; it is to separate, to war against, and to destroy your personal self- old testament religion is divisive. It is an allegorical testament of the evolution of man.

But to be authentic- or what Christ said to the woman at the well, to be in spirit and in truth, is to listen within; it is to drink of the inner eternal waters; it is to be reconnected to yourself; it is to become alive to your true, authentic self, which is God incarnate; it is to be free from rules and regulations and simply subjected to yourself to your own inner guidance system; it is to connect to pure, infinite, unconditional love; it is peace and serenity with yourself, with this life here, with others, and with God; it is the peace that passes understanding; it is to know that you can never really be separate from God; it is understanding that nothing in and of itself is evil or bad, but only perceived as evil (Romans 14:14); it is to be okay with where other people are in their journey; It is the freedom from feeling responsible for other peoples journey; it is to love everyone everywhere because you realize that what you do to one, you ultimately do to yourself; it is understanding that we are all of one source and life is eternal, and this too shall pass; it is knowing that the only thing that is real is that which never changes- that voice of God within- that YOU that has been there all along…

Look for that river within- it is a VAST supply!

 

 

 

Why Are They Rejecting Me?

Rejection

One of the most painful human experiences is that of rejection. This is because we are all interconnected and love and acceptance is a primal need.

Rejection is difficult to deal with for anyone and the difficulty increases when it comes to close friends and family, the ones we feel most connected to.

Their are both overt and covert ways of rejecting someone.
An example of an overt rejection is someone outright making fun you or telling you in some way that they do not like something about you.

Covert rejection is more subtle and deceitful.
We feel it inwardly, but outwardly the family and/or friends we feel rejected by act as if they are accepting us; yet, something about their energy or their little subtle remarks to us, tell us that they do not accept us. We may feel confused, frustrated and many times we mercilessly blame ourselves.

The law of attraction states that like attracts like.
When we are striving to raise our positive vibrations, continual, subtle feelings of rejection by those we love can derail us over and again until we feel like giving up.

Powerful exercises to help you overcome the negative emotions rejection evokes:

The following exercises will empower you and help you to move past those negative, hurtful feelings of rejection and onto creating your life of love, joy and full and unconditional self-acceptance.
(The exercises should either be done verbally out-loud or written down somewhere)

Part 1

  • Acknowledge how you feel. E.g. I feel rejected, unloved, hurt…
  • Locate the feeling-pain in your physical body. Talk about it as you feel it move through your body. Breath deeply, blowing out the negative emotions as you write or speak. E.g. It feels like somebody punched me in the gut. The pain is moving through up into my chest around my heart and lungs. (deep breath, slowly release) the energy is shifting. It isn’t as painful now. It is up in my shoulders sort of tingly. (breath deep move and shake the energy around and out of your shoulders) I am blowing it out and I am starting to feel better.

Do this exercise until you feel better. Do not add the reason why or the story behind it. Just feel the energy move through and out of your body. When you have come to a better feeling place, breath a few more deep cleansing breaths while stretching your arms and legs and body out.

Part 2

Why are they rejecting me?

It all has to do with energy and vibrations. Obviously we are attracting the energy of rejection into our vibration. So it stands to reason that somewhere we have adopted the belief that we are not acceptable, or we are unlovable. Try and think back as far as possible to the very first time you felt this feeling or rejection.

E.g. My first feeling of rejection came very young when I was born to a Newly-wed mother and father who had both been previously married and divorced and had other children from their first union. Due to the confusion and pain of being separated from their biological father and now disciplined in severe ways by their step father, my older siblings felt very threatened by my presence. Most of the time they wouldn’t let me play with them. I was even injured a few times by their rejection. Once they accidentally slammed my finger in the door and the tip of my finger was severed. Another time my sister had a neighbor boy punch me in the stomach. I passed out while walking home crying. There is no blame here on them, just the way the energy of rejection was already in place and going through our vortex. I would eventually reject my younger siblings at times as well. It was the energy cycle we were immersed in. 

Lets look at the energetic side to my story:

I was born into a very negative vortex. Because I was born into a family of people that were already deeply wounded by rejection, they were not able to receive my love and affection. In fact, my vulnerability made them outright angry because it reminded them of their own defenselessness. Consequently they rejected and wounded me too. I took into my vortex the energetic imprint of unlovable and unacceptable, and began to attract experiences into my vortex of reality that matched it. I can look over my life and see a painful trail of rejections.

Consider the people who originally rejected you.
What was their energetic imprint? How did this affect your vortex?

Take a little time to comfort your child-self that was originally wounded.
Help him or her to see that it was because the people around her were not able to take in the love and affection he or she offered and it really was not about her, but them. Comfort that child.

Lets add a little deeper perspective to it now as an adult.

When your energy is about healing, love, authenticity and honesty, there are many unhealed people that these positive energy forces will clash with.

Consider this:

If someone feels safe in conformity, your honesty and authenticity will feel threatening to them. If someone is too fearful to face their own shadows, your love and healing energy will feel threatening to them. When someone feels threatened, they generate defenses and hatred towards the one that feels threatening.

An animal senses fear as a threat. Your fear of rejection will also amplify the problem. Because fear is a very negative emotion, it only generates negative vibrations. But as you clear those fears through understanding energetic imprinting and cleansing the wounds, you will feel rejection less and less and begin to love and accept yourself fully. Joy will ensue!

Repeat the above exercises as often as needed.

Practice part 1 whenever you are sideswiped with those feelings of rejection. Move the energy through. Do not allow it to continue rolling around in your body and mind. Deal with it.

Practice part 2 until you fully understand the cause and effect of your own energetic imprint. Knowledge is power. Once you understand what we are really dealing with at an energetic level, you now have the tools to let that negative energy be reabsorbed into pure positive energy- send it into the energetic vortex of reality- it was never really about you.

Now you can move forward in creating a life of happiness and pure JOY!

Sea Side Candle Creation

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  1. Spray paint and old ceramic plate with Rust-Oleum’s Gloss Seaside blue.
  2. When dry, place candle on plate and hot-glue assorted seashells around it.
  3. Lightly spray entire piece with Krylon’s Glitter Blast Diamond Dust paint.

“Art opens the closets, airs out the cellars and attics. It brings healing.”

How Can I Help Those Who Feel Lost?

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When grappling with how to reach out and help others that may be struggling through darkness, ask yourself three questions-

  1. Who inspired you to believe in yourself, to strive for a better life and/or to have great faith?
  2. Why did they inspire you?
  3. What did they do or say?

Then ask yourself the next three questions:

  1. What has broken you or caused you to lose faith in yourself, God or humanity?
  2. Who played a vital role in breaking you?
  3. What did they say, do or not do that may have been instrumental in pushing you over the edge?

Now you have some insight into what heals and what damages…

Take Down Your Internal Assassin

“Make sure your worse enemy is not living between your own ears.” 

While sleeping, I had a dream…

A loud, aggressive, hateful woman was walking down the street alongside a sidewalk I was walking on. Following her was a group of defeated humans- some were being led to their assassination, others had weapons and were obeying her commands. She herself had a small handgun- and so did I. (we both had the same weapon)

They stopped in the street and the people braced their-selves to face their death. I watched in horror from behind a bushy tree, desperate to save them yet terrified of being seen.

Instinctively I knew, that if I could take the woman down, not only would I save the lives of the condemned, but I would set free the soldiers who only obeyed her out of fear. My hands shook as I pulled out my hand gun and checked the barrel to make sure it was loaded.

But the hateful, angry woman’s senses were too keen as her ears perked up to my subtle movements. She demanded I come out from behind the tree. I went to bring my gun up to shoot her, but she was quicker and drew hers up to shoot me. By a twist of fate, her gun did not fire. I took off running, her and the soldiers in hot pursuit behind.

I ran into a building and found a dark room in which to hide. I got my gun ready- aimed to shoot when she came to knock down the door. But I awoke before it happened.

All morning the dream kept coming back to me. I knew a message lay within the visions I had seen. Eventually it became clearer as I contemplated the fact that all characters in a dream usually reflect some part of your inner world.

The Hateful Assassin

Most people have experience with an internal assassin. This is the condemning voice that rattles on inside your head. He or she, gathers all your personas for assassination. She hates them. She has nothing but murder for them. Her hate is a product of deep rooted, unresolved anger. But she is blaming herself- her personas. She is aggressive and cruel.

Your core persona has compassion. Your core persona loves every part of her, even the weak parts, the failed parts, the shadowy dark parts, because they are all part of who she is as a whole. Each persona has offered life-perspective and been with her on her journey. But the angry persona wont have it. She sees them as weak and blames them for all of her misery. Both the assassin and the core have the exact same weapon. Each have the ability to destroy the other. If the assassin overtakes the core, then all that she is will die. But if she is able to outsmart and overtake the assassin, then all of her internal world will be set free.

The core persona is the only one who is equipped to take out the internal assassin. If she does not, the internal assassin will destroy all that she holds dear- all that life is to her. Your internal assassin will show no mercy.

assassinWe all have a responsibility to rescue our selves from our own internal assassin. As in the dream, she is powerful and is backed by an arsenal of armed soldiers that do her bidding. We may be frightened, weak, outnumbered, overpowered; we made need to find a dark room to hide and get our thoughts together and our ammunition prepared and ready for use.

It will only take one bullet properly aimed. It only takes us positioning ourselves right, aiming, and pulling the trigger. If we can give that internal assassin that one death blow, all can be free and unite in joy as one.

The loyalties of your inner persona are not to the assassin, but to YOU! Do not let fear overcome your resolve to be the hero of your own life. Do not allow that internal assassin to go on any further with her hateful, destructive ways.

What will take her down? What is the one bullet, the one gun that will wipe her out? What is the position we must take? Remove yourself from her aim, get out your gun, postition yourself to fire and wait for her to come to you. Your ammunition is…

LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE OF ALL THAT YOU ARE! freedom1

Look in the mirror and say to your SELF, with every ounce of passion and courage you have remaining within you-

“(Your NAME)- I am your BEST friend . I got your back! You are not alone! You are AWESOME. You are a valuable and beautiful soul. You deserve to be here and to live life to the fullest. I love and accept you JUST THE WAY YOU ARE!” 

Those are powerful bullets. Aim and begin shooting!

Take out that internal assassin. Set your soul free!!!

Much love…

Making Meaningful Connections

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All human misery stems from disconnection.
Pain is physical, mental or emotional suffering at varying intensities. Pain tells us something is out of balance and even life threatening.
Misery is extreme distress, and wretchedness of conditions or circumstances and definitely carries the component of pain.

Humans are designed for connection.
The only thing that connects us with God and with one another is love. Love is the only connecting energy in the universe. Everything that steers us away from love- even to the extreme of hatred, is disconnecting. Without love we drift away from God- our source- and from one another.

In order to connect with somebody in love, you have to put your full attention on them.
Connection takes attention with admiration- not agitation.
So many people are striving to connect with someone, but they are agitated, either about that person or about something else that is going on in their life. This agitation keeps them from their real and important focus, which is the person they are endeavoring to connect with. What they need instead is admiration.

When you focus on anything or anyone with admiration and love, you are going to make a connection.
Admiration is a feeling of wonder, pleasure and approval.
Most of us have relationships that we want to improve- relationships with spouse, child, friend, coworker, God, or even self!
Try focusing on the one you need better connection with, with admiration and love.

Focus! Admire! Love!

Key ingredients to real connection.

Christmas or X-Mas?

Did you know that X-mas and Christmas are really the same thing? X was the Greek word for Chi = Christ! But of course, most people do not realize that and so many are so worried about taking Christ out of Christmas. I am not a historian, but a little google search on the history of Christmas and we find that Winter Solstice was the original celebration; It was the celebration of the shortest day, meaning the days would begin to stay light longer from that point on in the year. CHRISTmas was added later to this festive time as an earmark date to honor the birth of Christ.

Christmas or X-mas? Perhaps if we are truly concerned about keeping the honor of Christ during the holiday, what we really should focus on is the way we are treating our neighbor- or those that are closest to us. Perhaps it is more about letting go of the Grinch and inviting in LOVE.

Keep your eyes open everyday for opportunities to reach out and show a little extra kindness, thoughtfulness, and compassion. So many are suffering in our world. Take a moment to call or visit someone that is lonely. Hold a door open or let someone go ahead of you in line. SMILE! Give away a little something you love to brighten another heart. Donate all those extra Christmas decorations to a family who doesn’t have any or to your favorite charity. These are just a few ideas, but the possibilities are endless.

Fill your CHRISTmas up with good deeds- the kind that no one ever knows about or really sees- the deeds that are a secret between you and the one you just loved! And watch the Spirit of Christ blossom out in all it’s glory over the season to be jolly!

“Watch out! Don’t do your good deeds publicly, to be admired by others, for you will lose the reward from your Father in heaven. When you give to someone in need, don’t do as the hypocrites do—blowing trumpets in the synagogues and streets to call attention to their acts of charity! I tell you the truth, they have received all the reward they will ever get. But when you give to someone in need, don’t let your left hand know what your right hand is doing. Give your gifts in private, and your Father, who sees everything, will reward you.” ~Jesus CHRIST

The Wisdom of Weeding

daisyGrasp this concept. Every good gardener knows that a beautiful garden begins with weeding. And then weeding has to be maintained.

Now apply this to other areas of your life. You want a nice, clean organized home? Identify and get rid of all the weeds- all the things that clutter and disorganize your home. You want your relationship with your partner to be more romantic and passionate? Identify all the things that suck away the nutrients of that relationship and get rid of them. You want to feel beautiful and healthy? Identify and get rid of all those things that make you feel sickly and ugly.

Really, the entire concept behind weeding a garden can be life transforming. Once the weeds are removed, then we can clearly see what remains and what needs to be added. We can begin to create what we most desire.

Is there an area of your life you feel frustrated with and unhappy about? Sit down with your journal and make a mental diagram of what you wish it to be like or feel like. Next. identify the weeds – the things that don’t belong in the picture; then, go to work on uprooting those things. Once the weeds are removed, start adding to the picture what you desire.

Ask yourself, “How do I want this relationship to feel? How do I want my home to feel? How do I want to feel in my own skin? Apply this exercise to any other problem area in your life, and watch the magic of co-creation happen!

Always remember, we get out of life what we put into it! Take time this weekend to dream and create the life you truly want to manifest.

Are You Normal?

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Normal- Conforming to a standard. Usual. Typical.

When I read the definition of “normal,” I feel a sort of sickening, boredom in the word- like a insipid cup of soup.

Yet, this is what society at large demands from it’s citizens- to be normal. If someone varies from off the normal-path, doctors, psychologists, and a variety of so-called specialist are summoned to figure out why they are not conforming to the given standard, why they are not usual or typical, and even worse, to try and “fix” them- to make them normal.

The reality is, there is no such thing as normal – only conformity. “Normal” is nebulous and relative. Nothing in this world is “abnormal” when given the context of its existence. Many worry about whether or not they are normal, or if their child or someone they love is normal. Why? Does conformity make someone more important? Or does nonconformity devalue a life?

Everything in this world has value in some way. Even those people and things that repel us teach us something about life, love, and what is pleasing verses what is displeasing to us. Every person in your life is a mirror that reflects something about yourself that you can learn from. To demand people to be normal is to put them in cages and chain them. It is to stifle their growth and potential, to rob them of their freedom, and to suck the very essence of life from their soul- a profound love for who they truly are.

The following video is a wonderful example of a young man- who is very normal given the context of his life, and has blessed humanity with a unique and awesome gift. You too, are gifted, talented and unique. YOU are both normal, given the context of your life, and unique- there is no other YOU in this world. Enjoy your beautiful self!

“The idea that some lives matter less is the root of all that is wrong with the world.”
― Paul Farmer