Trying to Get it Right

A Poem I wrote today about the struggle in trying to get something right!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Trying to Get it Right
Written by: Elizabeth A. Van Cleve

I heard you the first time
and tried to get it right
But my memory and my will
Got into a fight
My will it won the battle
and overtook my might

Your earnest plea the next time
Made my memory strong
I made a resolution
Not to get it wrong
But my resolution vanquished
Beneath the pressing throng

The punishment convinced me
N’er let my focus stray
To do my duty faithfully
Let nothing dim my way
But boredom slowed my footsteps
Daydreams set me to play

Your smile was refreshing
As you explained to me
The hows and whats and whys
And then you set me free
Right or wrong or not at all
Was now a choice for me

I heard you the last time
But now I understood
I didn’t have to try this time
I knew I surely would
For my will was now the Master
Of the right way for my good!

Life- The Amusement Park

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Imagine that you are at an amusement park. You are excited with childlike glee to be here. It’s a brand-new innovated park in which the “rides” are actual doors to whatever you wish to experience.

The place is so expansive and massive, there seems to be no end to options. There are doors to any country or culture. There are doors to all sorts of adventures. There are doors to creativity and careers. There are doors to emotions, any emotion you want to feel. There are doors to the past- to history and doors to the future. There are doors to outer-space and doors to the dimension of atoms. The doors are endless.

And you get to choose which door, or ride, you are going to take- all purely for the fun of it, for the experience and the expansion that particular choice will provide.

Imagine that the way to pass through a new door is simply through thought- because these experiences come through perception and as soon as perception shifts, a new door opens and a new experience begins.

Now, imagine this is actually your soul… before you came here, and here is simply a door you entered through thought. In order to fully experience the ride, you left everything behind- even memory of where you came from.

Imagine that the soul purpose of this life is simply to experience for the sake of expansion.  It is your choosing. It is all just a trip and you have all power within to shift the experience at anytime.

Imagination is a gift- a tool- a portal. Imagination is the key!

 

Your Inner River that Satifies

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There is a river
That flows from deep within,
There is a fountain
That frees the soul from sin,
Come to this water,
There is a vast supply,
There is a river
That never shall run dry.

This song talks about the river that “flows from deep within.”

In my book, “The Voice of God Within” I share my journey out of the abyss of religious muck and mire and finding true soul freedom when I began to listen within. I still hear that voice, and I have more peace now than I ever did in stuck in the boxed up teachings of Christianity.

However, my time spent in religion was not in vain. It was a stepping stone to where I am today- a learning process. I do not regret it. I was doing my very best during those years with what I understood. Nor do I advocate that religion is unnecessary. Many people are helped greatly by their religious affiliation.

But the greatest freedom, joy, peace and love all come from the voice within– There is a river that flows deep within each and every one of us. Most religious systems teach that you have to go through a process to receive this special infilling that gives you access to this river. Yet, I have found that it is these very processes offered that keep you away from this precious inner guidance. Religious dogma and expectations cause a person to look more without than within.

The REAL awakening comes when you hear and listen to the voice within. This voice is in every one of us. It is the very spark of life. It is the realization that YOU are the temple of God. Not a building or a group of people- but YOU! The Christ experience is to understand that you too are God incarnate.

“Is it not written in your scriptures, Ye are gods?” ~Jesus Christ

This song talks about freedom from sin, which is what keeps us from drinking of this eternal river. Sin is separation from God, or to put it more plainly- separation from SELF. It is anything that keeps you from listening within. When we hear that voice within, it leads us to have abundant life.

“I came so that you might have a more abundant life” ~Jesus Christ

To be religious is to be dedicated to a systematic way of living, to its rules, and to its religious observances. It is to have an allegorical “old-testament” way of life- to fear and quake before a powerful God- outside yourself, that will one day destroy all that is known to us today; it is to be judgmental of yourself and others; it is to separate, to war against, and to destroy your personal self- old testament religion is divisive. It is an allegorical testament of the evolution of man.

But to be authentic- or what Christ said to the woman at the well, to be in spirit and in truth, is to listen within; it is to drink of the inner eternal waters; it is to be reconnected to yourself; it is to become alive to your true, authentic self, which is God incarnate; it is to be free from rules and regulations and simply subjected to yourself to your own inner guidance system; it is to connect to pure, infinite, unconditional love; it is peace and serenity with yourself, with this life here, with others, and with God; it is the peace that passes understanding; it is to know that you can never really be separate from God; it is understanding that nothing in and of itself is evil or bad, but only perceived as evil (Romans 14:14); it is to be okay with where other people are in their journey; It is the freedom from feeling responsible for other peoples journey; it is to love everyone everywhere because you realize that what you do to one, you ultimately do to yourself; it is understanding that we are all of one source and life is eternal, and this too shall pass; it is knowing that the only thing that is real is that which never changes- that voice of God within- that YOU that has been there all along…

Look for that river within- it is a VAST supply!

 

 

 

What is RIGHT with Me!?

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When someone else comes against us, discourages us, rejects us, misunderstands us, makes fun of us, breaks up with us, or is just plain mean to us, after grappling through the initial blow and shock of what just happened, more often than not, we start to ask ourselves, “What is wrong with me?”

Lets put the breaks on this question right here and now with the simple answer:

NOTHING!!!!

We are not even asking the right question,

“What is wrong with THEM?” 

After all, they are the one with the issue- not you.

They are the one responsible for how they feel and react or respond to ANYTHING in life- including you.

Its time to dump the question of what’s wrong with me and replace it with an empowering, positive question;

“What is RIGHT with me?”

In fact, if you tend to look for what is wrong with you, start making the question “What is RIGHT with me?” a regular habit.

Smile at yourself in the mirror. Ignore all those ugly negative voices that keep trying to pull you into self-condemnation.

Tell that beautiful, one of kind person in the mirror that you are his/her BEST friend and you are going to start telling him/her all the reasons why!

“What is RIGHT with me?”

Now that is a question worth meditating on and answering!!!

Have an awesome day!

 

Share the Good News

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Obvious Fact:

The news is bombarded with disturbing stories.

On my yahoo cover page, I have to scroll down for quite awhile to find anything that is GOOD news. This is not because there is more bad in the world than good. It is our focus that is determining what we see ever day. As long as we click it, read it, buy it, talk about it, pass it along, that is what we will continue to get. They give us what sells.

As light workers, we should be very selective about the news we click on. Remember, ever click counts- including yours.

When its dark and light is needed, TURN THE LIGHT ON! When you turn off the light it becomes dark.

Collectively we can make a huge impact in what we see in the news with diligence and tenacity.

Be mindful about what you engage in.

Be intentional about what you click on, read, share and “Like.”

Sometimes you gotta do a little digging, but hey, good vibes are worth it. After all they are determining what you are going to attract into your personal life sphere.

Here is a layman’s  spin to a famous Bible verse:

“Hey my friends, whatever you find that is truthful, whatever is impartial, whatever you find that is unprejudiced, when you find something that is clean, when you find something that is lovely or when you hear a piece of good news, if you find something that is moral or praise worthy, focus your attention there.” 

The following are just a few “Good News” links I found today: 

Please take time to give them a click. Read. Share! Share! Share!

SHARE THE GOOD NEWS!!!

The Girl with no Job Made Instagram a Career

Incredible Tourist Bargains With Fishermen to Release Baby Whale Shark

Women sing a beautiful song to elephants

This is Why Italians dont get fat

Boy Delivers Pizzas to Louisiana Flood Victims on His Birthday

He Could Play Anywhere, But He Chooses To Play Next To The Homeless. This Is Why…

Kentucky Cop Helps Woman in Weight-Loss Fight Finish 10K Race

The following are a few websites that focus on Good News. Support them!

Good News Network

Today Good News

Daily Good: News that Inspires

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Why Are They Rejecting Me?

Rejection

One of the most painful human experiences is that of rejection. This is because we are all interconnected and love and acceptance is a primal need.

Rejection is difficult to deal with for anyone and the difficulty increases when it comes to close friends and family, the ones we feel most connected to.

Their are both overt and covert ways of rejecting someone.
An example of an overt rejection is someone outright making fun you or telling you in some way that they do not like something about you.

Covert rejection is more subtle and deceitful.
We feel it inwardly, but outwardly the family and/or friends we feel rejected by act as if they are accepting us; yet, something about their energy or their little subtle remarks to us, tell us that they do not accept us. We may feel confused, frustrated and many times we mercilessly blame ourselves.

The law of attraction states that like attracts like.
When we are striving to raise our positive vibrations, continual, subtle feelings of rejection by those we love can derail us over and again until we feel like giving up.

Powerful exercises to help you overcome the negative emotions rejection evokes:

The following exercises will empower you and help you to move past those negative, hurtful feelings of rejection and onto creating your life of love, joy and full and unconditional self-acceptance.
(The exercises should either be done verbally out-loud or written down somewhere)

Part 1

  • Acknowledge how you feel. E.g. I feel rejected, unloved, hurt…
  • Locate the feeling-pain in your physical body. Talk about it as you feel it move through your body. Breath deeply, blowing out the negative emotions as you write or speak. E.g. It feels like somebody punched me in the gut. The pain is moving through up into my chest around my heart and lungs. (deep breath, slowly release) the energy is shifting. It isn’t as painful now. It is up in my shoulders sort of tingly. (breath deep move and shake the energy around and out of your shoulders) I am blowing it out and I am starting to feel better.

Do this exercise until you feel better. Do not add the reason why or the story behind it. Just feel the energy move through and out of your body. When you have come to a better feeling place, breath a few more deep cleansing breaths while stretching your arms and legs and body out.

Part 2

Why are they rejecting me?

It all has to do with energy and vibrations. Obviously we are attracting the energy of rejection into our vibration. So it stands to reason that somewhere we have adopted the belief that we are not acceptable, or we are unlovable. Try and think back as far as possible to the very first time you felt this feeling or rejection.

E.g. My first feeling of rejection came very young when I was born to a Newly-wed mother and father who had both been previously married and divorced and had other children from their first union. Due to the confusion and pain of being separated from their biological father and now disciplined in severe ways by their step father, my older siblings felt very threatened by my presence. Most of the time they wouldn’t let me play with them. I was even injured a few times by their rejection. Once they accidentally slammed my finger in the door and the tip of my finger was severed. Another time my sister had a neighbor boy punch me in the stomach. I passed out while walking home crying. There is no blame here on them, just the way the energy of rejection was already in place and going through our vortex. I would eventually reject my younger siblings at times as well. It was the energy cycle we were immersed in. 

Lets look at the energetic side to my story:

I was born into a very negative vortex. Because I was born into a family of people that were already deeply wounded by rejection, they were not able to receive my love and affection. In fact, my vulnerability made them outright angry because it reminded them of their own defenselessness. Consequently they rejected and wounded me too. I took into my vortex the energetic imprint of unlovable and unacceptable, and began to attract experiences into my vortex of reality that matched it. I can look over my life and see a painful trail of rejections.

Consider the people who originally rejected you.
What was their energetic imprint? How did this affect your vortex?

Take a little time to comfort your child-self that was originally wounded.
Help him or her to see that it was because the people around her were not able to take in the love and affection he or she offered and it really was not about her, but them. Comfort that child.

Lets add a little deeper perspective to it now as an adult.

When your energy is about healing, love, authenticity and honesty, there are many unhealed people that these positive energy forces will clash with.

Consider this:

If someone feels safe in conformity, your honesty and authenticity will feel threatening to them. If someone is too fearful to face their own shadows, your love and healing energy will feel threatening to them. When someone feels threatened, they generate defenses and hatred towards the one that feels threatening.

An animal senses fear as a threat. Your fear of rejection will also amplify the problem. Because fear is a very negative emotion, it only generates negative vibrations. But as you clear those fears through understanding energetic imprinting and cleansing the wounds, you will feel rejection less and less and begin to love and accept yourself fully. Joy will ensue!

Repeat the above exercises as often as needed.

Practice part 1 whenever you are sideswiped with those feelings of rejection. Move the energy through. Do not allow it to continue rolling around in your body and mind. Deal with it.

Practice part 2 until you fully understand the cause and effect of your own energetic imprint. Knowledge is power. Once you understand what we are really dealing with at an energetic level, you now have the tools to let that negative energy be reabsorbed into pure positive energy- send it into the energetic vortex of reality- it was never really about you.

Now you can move forward in creating a life of happiness and pure JOY!

Sea Side Candle Creation

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  1. Spray paint and old ceramic plate with Rust-Oleum’s Gloss Seaside blue.
  2. When dry, place candle on plate and hot-glue assorted seashells around it.
  3. Lightly spray entire piece with Krylon’s Glitter Blast Diamond Dust paint.

“Art opens the closets, airs out the cellars and attics. It brings healing.”

Start Your Day with Awesome Sauce

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Good Morning!

Here is quick morning practice to do before you even get out of bed that can add that extra awesome sauce to your day!

  1. As soon as you wake up say “Good Morning” out-loud with a smile on your face.
  2. Next, say out-loud, three things you are thankful for; e.g. Thank you for a safe nights rest. Thank you for another day of life. Thank you for this bed/ room….
  3. Spend five minutes waking up your body. Stretch your feet back and forth. Roll your wrist. Take long, smooth, deep breaths. Bask in the moment.
  4. Sit up and ask yourself, how do I feel today and what do I need? Tune into your body. Its it tired? Sore? Refreshed? What about your mood? Do your night dreams come to mind? Bring them to the forefront. What emotions were felt? How do they relate to your current life? Acknowledge them. If they were negative emotions, determine what you need to bring them up the vibrational scale. Keep a journal and pen by your bed to take notes.
  5. Once you decide on your needs, think about how you can meet those needs in the upcoming day. If you are sore, maybe a hot Epsom salt bath and a couple aspirin would help. If you are weary from a stressful week, perhaps you needs rest and relaxation.
  6. Ask yourself, “How do I want this day to feel?” Now that you have tuned in to your needs and desires, you can answer this question. Feel is the key word here. Do you want to feel relaxed? If you are meeting up with people, how do you want the meet up to feel? If you are going to work, how do you want work to feel today? Put your feelers out there and really feel what you desire.
  7. Now commit it all to the universe. Place it all in a colorful bubble- choose a color that feels good and then mentally release it for the universe to work it out.

You are the co-creator of your life. You are either creating by default or you are creating intentionally.

Have an AWESOME day!!!

How to say NO nicely

 

Just say no

“NO” tends to have such a negative stigma to it, and yet it is possibly the most powerful word in our vocabulary when we learn to use it regularly in our lives. You see in this world of duality we have both YES and NO-  and together they are called CHOICE! As we move toward wholeness and well-being, it is imperative that we become very cognizant of our choices and choose deliberately and wisely those things which heal, uplift, bring peace, love, joy, happiness, and fun- and sometimes those things that are difficult in order to help ourselves or others out of loneliness, despair or even danger.

“NO” needs to be heavily cultivated in our lives in order to make room to say YES to our true desires, wants and needs. It’s important to decipher accurately what you are responsible for and what you are not responsible for. In order to bring NO into your comfort zone, you have to come to the realization that:

  • You are not here to be the savior of the world.
  • You are not the rescuer of other peoples lives.
  • You are not responsible for other peoples choices, other peoples feelings or emotions, other peoples opinions, and other peoples journey here.

We can call this list false responsibility. “Other people” includes family and close friends. Even our children, once they are of age to make their own decisions independently, we need to let them go and make their own choices and be responsible for their own journey, feelings, mistakes and progress. We gave them all we were able and now its time for them to journey on and learn as we have learned- through trial and error, and through all of life experiences- the good and the difficult.

The next time you are asked to be somewhere, to bring something, to do something, to go somewhere, to help out, care for, etc… weather asked verbally or by assumption, if you are not in the habit of saying no when you need to, then do not answer right away. Take time consider what your responsibilities truly are, whether or not you want to say yes and why. Think about the obligation that saying yes will entail and if you have the energy, time, strength or desire to make that obligation.

When you say NO, you need not offer an explanation. I bite my tongue, if needs be, to keep from explaining myself to others. I don’t need to do that.

*Just remember that once you give a reason why you are saying no, that opens the door for argument and for the other person to persuade you otherwise. When you are endeavoring to build healthy boundaries “NO” is one of your best friends!!!

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Hi Vibes for the Wounded Soul; the struggle is real!

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As a child, the mental and emotional abuse I endured was almost unbearable.
There was some physical abuse as well, in the form of corporal punishment that never matched the “crime.”
Most of the time I had no idea what I had done wrong, but my father seemed very adept at pulling heinous crimes out of the hat for an excuse to unleash his own unhealed wounds on his children.
The alcohol consumption only worsened the amount and intensity of his chastisements.

Horror… terror…dread…
How does one describe being a child of a belligerent drunk?

I have flashes of hiding under the bed, or in the closet,
covering my ears so as to shut out the screams of my siblings,
my heart pounding into my throat-
hoping beyond hope he would not find me.
Who knows the hours I remained there at times, terrified to come out.

But it was the emotional abuse that was the most damaging-
the angry and insulting slurs,
beating me down, insult by insult,
like a worthless piece of existence.

Being raised by a father figure-
the one you looked up to for love and acceptance,
to cheer you on,
to protect you from the harshness of life,
to give you strength and courage…
left scars that are blatantly visible in my everyday life…
Scars from always being watched by a condemning eye,
relentlessly ridiculed and punished,
scars of never being enough-
never kind enough, good enough, obedient enough…
And those scars don’t go away.
Some of them pierce me everyday,
cast an ugly shadow over my spirit,
get in the way of the perfect life I long to live…

I want to say to you,
I understand that the struggle is real.
You are not alone!
I get it!

High vibes life has been the antidote to my deep depression,
to low self-esteem, to fear of waking up,
and to fear of dying.

High Vibes Life has taught me…
That I can create something NEW!
I can paint my own rainbow
and make my world beautiful!

It has not been easy.
Everyday I have to practice.
Everyday the scars and wounds stare me in the face,
and everyday I have to kiss them good morning
welcome them once again as part of who I am.
Everyday I have to check my forgiveness,
for the one who originally wounded and maimed my soul,
and for the ones along lifes path
who unwittingly kicked at my wounds,
and scorned my tenderness.

Everyday I have to chase away the shadows of yesterday,
and begin the day anew- with beautiful thoughts.
Many times I awaken from disturbing dreams;
Most of the really scary ones have faded, but I still dream
of being rejected, unloved, unwanted, unworthy;
But I’ve learned to thank them for the what they show me;
They guide me to understand what positive affirmations I need to write.

And I remind myself anew, out loud,
in ink, in voice, in mind, in Spirit:

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YOU ARE LOVED!
YOU ARE WORTHY OF LOVE!
YOU ARE LOVEABLE!
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!
IT IS SAFE TO BE ALIVE!
YOU ARE TRULY AMAZING!
YOU ARE THE BEST FRIEND EVER!
I LOVE AND ACCEPT YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE!

 

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Namaste!