“Make sure your worse enemy is not living between your own ears.”
While sleeping, I had a dream…
A loud, aggressive, hateful woman was walking down the street alongside a sidewalk I was walking on. Following her was a group of defeated humans- some were being led to their assassination, others had weapons and were obeying her commands. She herself had a small handgun- and so did I. (we both had the same weapon)
They stopped in the street and the people braced their-selves to face their death. I watched in horror from behind a bushy tree, desperate to save them yet terrified of being seen.
Instinctively I knew, that if I could take the woman down, not only would I save the lives of the condemned, but I would set free the soldiers who only obeyed her out of fear. My hands shook as I pulled out my hand gun and checked the barrel to make sure it was loaded.
But the hateful, angry woman’s senses were too keen as her ears perked up to my subtle movements. She demanded I come out from behind the tree. I went to bring my gun up to shoot her, but she was quicker and drew hers up to shoot me. By a twist of fate, her gun did not fire. I took off running, her and the soldiers in hot pursuit behind.
I ran into a building and found a dark room in which to hide. I got my gun ready- aimed to shoot when she came to knock down the door. But I awoke before it happened.
All morning the dream kept coming back to me. I knew a message lay within the visions I had seen. Eventually it became clearer as I contemplated the fact that all characters in a dream usually reflect some part of your inner world.
The Hateful Assassin
Most people have experience with an internal assassin. This is the condemning voice that rattles on inside your head. He or she, gathers all your personas for assassination. She hates them. She has nothing but murder for them. Her hate is a product of deep rooted, unresolved anger. But she is blaming herself- her personas. She is aggressive and cruel.
Your core persona has compassion. Your core persona loves every part of her, even the weak parts, the failed parts, the shadowy dark parts, because they are all part of who she is as a whole. Each persona has offered life-perspective and been with her on her journey. But the angry persona wont have it. She sees them as weak and blames them for all of her misery. Both the assassin and the core have the exact same weapon. Each have the ability to destroy the other. If the assassin overtakes the core, then all that she is will die. But if she is able to outsmart and overtake the assassin, then all of her internal world will be set free.
The core persona is the only one who is equipped to take out the internal assassin. If she does not, the internal assassin will destroy all that she holds dear- all that life is to her. Your internal assassin will show no mercy.
We all have a responsibility to rescue our selves from our own internal assassin. As in the dream, she is powerful and is backed by an arsenal of armed soldiers that do her bidding. We may be frightened, weak, outnumbered, overpowered; we made need to find a dark room to hide and get our thoughts together and our ammunition prepared and ready for use.
It will only take one bullet properly aimed. It only takes us positioning ourselves right, aiming, and pulling the trigger. If we can give that internal assassin that one death blow, all can be free and unite in joy as one.
The loyalties of your inner persona are not to the assassin, but to YOU! Do not let fear overcome your resolve to be the hero of your own life. Do not allow that internal assassin to go on any further with her hateful, destructive ways.
What will take her down? What is the one bullet, the one gun that will wipe her out? What is the position we must take? Remove yourself from her aim, get out your gun, postition yourself to fire and wait for her to come to you. Your ammunition is…
Look in the mirror and say to your SELF, with every ounce of passion and courage you have remaining within you-
“(Your NAME)- I am your BEST friend . I got your back! You are not alone! You are AWESOME. You are a valuable and beautiful soul. You deserve to be here and to live life to the fullest. I love and accept you JUST THE WAY YOU ARE!”
Those are powerful bullets. Aim and begin shooting!
Take out that internal assassin. Set your soul free!!!